You’re starting fresh, hooray! But you’re having trouble adjusting after a rocky start, boo. Maybe you want to quit because it’s too hard. Don’t give up, my friend. A rocky start after a new beginning means you’re on the right track.
Grieving loss is hard and it hurts, even if you’re a Christian who believes you’ll be reunited with your loved ones in the new heaven and earth. Worse than grief, for me, is learning how to actually live without the person I loved and lost.